In my mind…

31 07 2011

I wish the trips I take in my mind in order to sort feelings and emotions, somehow take me to the shore, the shore of happiness and peace I long for. There is not a moment in my life I tend to remember only the good in order to overshadow the darkness that surrounds me. I know in time the sun will shine, laughter will be the norm and my dreams will come true. All I need is faith and time, like the flood that washes away the debris of all that doesn’t belong or is good in my life. It’s hard to swallow but I must, it’s just reality…

I am learning to articulate the words that will create my new life and prepare myself to see a miracle. It is something new and exciting that in time will provide me with a happiness beyond my wildest dreams. I see it, even though I still don’t see who will be beside me. All I know is what it will bring into my existence which I lack now.

What’s in your mind?





From the Ashes…

23 07 2011

Nothing could be more painful than to be consumed by fire and converted into ash. It is a good analogy for the trials and sorrows in life but also for the process in which many of us go through in order to be transformed into something new or give way to a new life. It is painful but not even a trace of what it was must remain in order to give way to something completely new. In the heat of the moment we don’t realize it but given past experiences it is the way it should be.

Gathering strength gets harder and harder as we try to hold on to fragments of what it was, it is not until we let go that our hands are empty to be filled again with our reward. It is a battle in which the warrior must shed the worthless weapon and quickly reach for one more suited for the fight at hand. He must be quick or risk the chance to be deadly wounded. Perhaps we wait too long in this process, I know, I’m guilty of that. I waited so long that sometimes I feel half alive and my strength is just not there anymore. I must lay in the fire until I am totally consumed and then when it is all done my ashes will be free to be blown by the wind. I will no longer be confined to one place in time but be free to fly wherever the wind leads me. I need to stop fighting this transition and let go of all I know, which now hurts me, and embrace the now and be opened to what the future will bring. It is not easy, but in time I know I will do just that and a better life will be before me.

From the ashes I will rise a brand new being and will never turn back trying to become what was, but I will embrace all the possibilities and take advantage of the opportunities of a brand new life.





By the sea…

14 07 2011

By the sea all melts away, in an instant the worries and sorrows drift away from me. The joy finds its way to me in the breeze that caress my skin and in the water that refreshes my body. It is in the sounds of the waves as the come to the shore that I once more find my place on this earth and I close my eyes to wish my heartfelt feelings travel to that place where I know has an undeniable space where is treasured and appreciated. It means so much to me even though the distance separates me from many whom I love dearly but the memories and the moments spent together will forever be with us. By giving the best of me I know it will never come back to me voided, it will come to fulfill a purpose even though I might be a world apart because for love there are no barriers and it goes and lingers where it should, for all eternity.