Life Lessons on Letting Go

1 09 2009

It was a long time coming, the years go by and before you know it your kids are no kids anymore. At first one refuse to see it or accept and we try to hold on, one more year, one more month, one more day, one more hour but as the time goes by the tension grows greater as we try to hold on. The moment comes and the pressure is such that you just have to let go. It is painful, at first I felt lost and unneeded, sometimes even unwanted, but it has been almost couple of weeks and it is a relief not to have to be after anyone. Everyone is responsible for their own schedule and work. It is tempting not to try to help or ask too many questions but at the same time it is liberating.

This is the time to begin to recreate my life in so many ways; emotionally, physically and spirituality. It is a time to open doors and windows and see what is out there that I could not see, hear and experience for so long. My focus is slowly changing from raising and caring to the spontaneity of each and every day. It is not easy sometimes when you are used to structure and routine but at the same time is exciting. Time will pass until I am completely accustomed to this new way of living and new role in my life. I love to direct and guide and now all I will have to do (hope so) is assist. Watching how the decisions are made, right or wrong, while standing on the sidelines in not an easy task. I want to jump right in and make it alright. I guess every mom wants to do the same but it is time to let go.

As another day begins all I can say is that I am thankful for the years past no matter how hard they were, and that I look forward for the years to come which will come with new and unknown experiences. May they be as memorable and fulfilling as the time when we as a family laid a strong foundation.



3 responses

2 09 2009

very interesting text. Now it is my life

3 09 2009
Sherita Searcy

Good Morning Clary,
It has been a while Friend. I have been in the trenches of life, realizing that I was choosing against my own conscious to move forward out of fear — hence my dip back into no man’s land. I have been away for a while — just deciding how I was going to say yes to life — not in just a moment of inspiration, but everyday for the rest of my life. I decided that living in a world of negativity and dying was no longer an option for me and that living and experiencing the joys and pains life brings is a better option. Thank God for the boomerang effect life affords us — the chance to do it all over again and say yes to commitment, change, life and ultimately love. Thank you for supporting me even in the dry season. I pray all is well in your world. HUGS through the computer.
In Friendship,
Sherita Searcy

5 09 2009

I am so glad to hear that Sherita, it is a long process and one we are called to take daily with a yes, a no, or a maybe and keep moving along the path of life. It is true what you say about that boomerang effect and it is one that we forget many times, that is why we fear not realizing that whatever goes wrong won’t stay that way forever. Remember about taking chances?? We did it when we were young without thinking much, now we thing too much sometimes and that is what it kills it. Wishing you the best always my friend, be well. 🙂

ryszard, welcome to my blog. 🙂

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